times

it's been 14 years I live in this world
yet many stuff happened in my life
once I though my life I should live it
but I figure out NO coz there's always someone
who tried to help you prepared everything
eventhough how you have to live your life
I cant say no so I'll just need to do it the way they want
Friends ~
once I really though your my best friend
I trust you I think you should know me well
but then I'm wrong and yet you let me knew something
maybe I might hurt you with some words I've said
at here I want to tell u something that's sorry
you know since that day on
I become hard to trust people
I even try to think before about my attitude
am I wrong? isn't that wrong to be yourself when ur in front of ur close friend?
I asked myself then I get my conclusion
I wont be myself anymore and I lost myself
I lost trust...... I lost my courage the courage to trust people
but sometimes I'll find out that I should thx you too
coz you let me become more mature
at least now I'll think for others first
try to be da one they like it might be stupid
but I don't think I have choice.........
people do change
the people close to me changed
people I trust changed
people who trust me changed
people who hurt me changed
people I hurt changed
time do let a person changed
even me myself changed
maybe that's the special of time
the magic of it ..............