Mask~

when u bring some laugh to ppl
yet u don't get the fun of it
you might think it's good you bring smile
and happiness to ppl yet you're not even happy
but it's nice to see ppl smile or laugh
because of something you had said or did
maybe it's kindna stupid
but gonna smile !!! when ur infront of ppl yet ur not happy
that's abit hard ...........
still it's better than you cry or show that ur not happy
or wad wad ever in front of ppl
at least ur smiling rite? like this =)
put a mask on and keep going on
that's life isn't it?
there's too many people put mask on and keep going on their life
well people they need that to survive
not everyone can accept the real u
but when u put on the mask too long
u'll totally lost urself and don't know who are u anymore
seriously ........ I don't know who I am anymore =)
yet I still need to put on my mask and my smile
keep going on my life =)
maybe I need time to find who I am ..........
yea~ maybe I really need time =)

times

it's been 14 years I live in this world
yet many stuff happened in my life
once I though my life I should live it
but I figure out NO coz there's always someone
who tried to help you prepared everything
eventhough how you have to live your life
I cant say no so I'll just need to do it the way they want
Friends ~
once I really though your my best friend
I trust you I think you should know me well
but then I'm wrong and yet you let me knew something
maybe I might hurt you with some words I've said
at here I want to tell u something that's sorry
you know since that day on
I become hard to trust people
I even try to think before about my attitude
am I wrong? isn't that wrong to be yourself when ur in front of ur close friend?
I asked myself then I get my conclusion
I wont be myself anymore and I lost myself
I lost trust...... I lost my courage the courage to trust people
but sometimes I'll find out that I should thx you too
coz you let me become more mature
at least now I'll think for others first
try to be da one they like it might be stupid
but I don't think I have choice.........
people do change
the people close to me changed
people I trust changed
people who trust me changed
people who hurt me changed
people I hurt changed
time do let a person changed
even me myself changed
maybe that's the special of time
the magic of it ..............